I want to apologize to my family and friends. I have had enough! I am tired of watching the self-destruction, and I am through with it. I have some very sharp comments, and they are directed at someone specific. I do not intend to explain my comments beyond what is said right now. The person whom this is aimed at knows who they are. I am not attempting to call this person to repentance, I am beyond that. You know what you need to do, and you need to do it.
This directed to a young man who is trying to show that he is grown up, and is doing self-destructive things to prove the he is in fact a “man” who can make his own decisions. What he does he does it openly, so that those who love him can painfully watch. If any pleas to stop doing this are directed at him he thumbs his nose at them, and delights in their pain. I’m telling you that this is NOT being a man, this is being a juvenile lowlife who may no longer have the potential to one day call himself a true man. Why would a man do what you do for the “respect” of “friends” at a cost which is most dear. The people who love you suffer greatly because of your behavior. They cry to the Lord in your behalf, and are wounded to the core for their trouble.
I’m sorry, but it is time to grow up. You need to take responsibility, and be accountable for yourself. You should not be self-destructive, and cause pain to those who wait to see if you will indeed grow up. Nevertheless, you have free will, God given agency to make your own choices. It is your life, your choice. However, in making your choices you will find that attached to them are accountability. You can make the choices to live the life you have chosen, but PLEASE, when it swings around to finally bite you, don’t blame anyone but yourself for your foolishness.
You hurt those who love you just because in your heart you feel that they somehow owe you something, and seeing this will somehow make them pay. No, you are the one who will pay the price with this self-destruction. However, IF YOU YOURSELF WOULD BE DESTROYED, SEEK NOT TO DESTROY YOUR FAMILY. Those who love you. It would be better for you to just go quietly than to hurt them. It is not your parent’s fault that you are a loser. The fault does not fall on God by any means. The fault doesn’t even land on your lowlife friends. It rest squarely on your own shoulders, so don’t even go there with me because it is simply not true.
A man would not do harm to those who love him. No… on the contrary, a real man would take responsibility for himself, and not try to pass the buck. A real man would seek to do everything he could to overcome diversity, and come out on top. A real man would seek to bring his loved ones up as well. You have everything to work toward, and need to pull your inebriated head out and take a long look at yourself. You were meant for better things, but it is your choice whether or not to wallow with the pigs. To use unfounded, self pity to keep yourself down, and “justify” your actions. It is your responsibility to make these changes, and pull yourself up, or prove yourself a waste of skin.
We will mourn you when you finally pass away, but it will be a familiar feeling, and it will pass. They will hurt but only for a time when they realize that the pain you were intentionally causing has stopped. I suggest to them that they continue to pray from you, but separate themselves from the ability for you to cause them constant pain. You are going to do what you are going to do, and if you want better, it is up to you.